Let's get personal...

Over the past month and a half, I have embarked on a S.E.R.I.O.U.S. mission to change my life and my perception about who I am and reclaim my self-worth. It has been a New Year's Resolution for forever...I never considered myself a beautiful person, despite everyones kind words. I had some serious issues that could only be resolved through a very lengthy Hypnotherapy Session in early January. And how grateful I am for that session because it has CHANGED my life. I no longer use my weight to define myself, it's not who I am, it's not what makes me me. Weight or not, I still love to sing, I still love to craft, I still am pretty much terrible at keeping up on my laundry, I am still a mom. But...without the extra weight, I am free to do so many more things and I don't have to hide behind it anymore.

You see...this society is hell-bent (pardon my french) on making women feel like if they don't fit the mold (the wildly tiny and almost non-existant mold) then they aren't beautiful. What kind of world is this and why in the world would we want our children, our daughters to grow up thinking they aren't beautiful or worth anything, or our sons to grow up looking for the "perfect woman" in all the wrong places. So...after some serious soul searching and some cleansing of some past situations and experiences...I am happy to report that I am on my way to truly being the me I am. Does that make sense? Hopefully because I don't know how else to explain it!

So...On October 22nd I weighed 246 (I delivered Ollie that day), on January 15th I weighed 216 and today I weigh 203. I have had a harder time the past couple of weeks losing because I am nursing my little monster but I'm proud of 13 lbs in 3 1/2 weeks. I have a goal, of course, and am determined to reach it and NOTHING is going to stand in my way!!!

{This is me in 6 months!}